this is lame...

Androgynous You scored 63 masculinity and 60 femininity!

You scored high on both masculinity and femininity. You have a strong personality exhibiting characteristics of both traditional sex roles.

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on masculinity You scored higher than 99% on femininity

Link: The Bem Sex Role Inventory Test written by weirdscience on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Lesbian Photographer Tee Corinne died on Sunday, from cancer.

so so sad...
she inspired so much of my work




the cunt coloring book, I have appropriated many a time

Ani's new one is pretty good, the first track "hypnotized" is classic ani love lyrics, still mourning a relationship...
And "Decree" makes me wanna get up and do something, or maybe cry about the cancer part...

Decree
by Ani DiFranco

Step up and forfeit your frontal lobe
To the sexed up stroll of celebrity
Never mind that the nanoseconds in between
Are some of the darkest darkness that you've ever seen
Keep your eye on my finger
And listen to the sound of my voice

Get your subliminal decree
And your false security
Be all that you can be
Be all that you can be

In hospitals and schools
Airports and banks and bars
Big ones on street corners
Little ones driving by in cars
And glowing through countless
Bedroom curtains at night
That 30k tone
And that pale blue light saying

Daddy knows best
Yes, this is the news
In 90 second segments officially produced
And aired again and again and again
By the little black and white pawns
Of the network yes men
While the stars are going out
And the stripes are getting bent

And cancer, the great teacher
Has been opening schools
Downstream from every factory
Still, everywhere fools are
Squinting into microscopes
Researching cells
Trying to figure out a way
That we can all live in hell

Well, step back, look up
You'll see I'm dimming the sun
But you won't, will you?
Oh, that's a good little one

'cause daddy knows best
Yes, this is the news
In 90 second segments officially produced
And aired again and again and again
By the little black and white pawns
Of the network yes men
While the stars are going out
And the stripes are getting bent

The stars are going out
And the stripes are getting bent



Hypnotized
by Ani DiFranco

So that's how you found me
Rain falling around me
Lookin down at a worm
With a long way to go
And the traffic was hissing by
And i was homesick
And i was high

I was surrounded by a language
In which i could say only hello
And thank you very much
But you spoke so i could understand
And i drew a treasure map on your hand

And you were no picnic
You were no prize
But you had just enough pathos
To keep me hypnotized
Hypnotized

The map led to an island
In a sea of store-bought dreams
Where soulless singers sang
Over beats built by machines

And lovely girls were hovering
Above my head like gulls
With their long slender necks
And their delicate skulls

And i was no picnic
I was no prize
But i had just enough sweetness
To keep you hypnotized
Hypnotized

So that's how you found me
Rain falling around me
Lookin down at a worm
With a long way to go

Summer Solstice-the first day of summer, typically on June 21st. The sun reaches its maximum elevation today, with the greatest number of daylight hours in the year. This day is also called Midsummer, because it comes roughly during the midst of the growing season in Europe. 

"Solstice" comes from two Latin words: "sol" (meaning sun) and "sistere," (to cause to stand still). In the afternoon, the sun will look as though it is standing still. The sun is at the height of it's cycle.

Summer Solstice is a time to reflect on the growth of the season. Seeds fom Spring (the season of intense change) planted in the Earth, as well as the seeds planted in our lives. Summer is the a worry-free time. A time of cleansing and renewal. A time of love and growth.

My super cool printmaker friend Julianna Swaney has two sites up to sell art. 

Check. Them. Out.


http://www.ohmycavalier.com/


http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=50198

This song is decadent. Great for midnight, moonlit drives by the ocean. k (the queen of music mixes) put it on a mix titled: "Break Me ...Go On and Try." 

Spektor sounds like a mix of Anne Heaton, Fiona Apple, Beth Orton and the Rent Soundtrack. 

http://www.reginaspektor.com/

Fidelity
by Regina Spektor

(Shake it up)

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

And suppose I never met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course its gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better
Better better better

I never love nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting by heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All this music
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart
Breaks my
Heart
Breaks my heart

Dyke March 

Friday, 
June 16th, 2006
Gather at 7:30pm
at Post Office Park
in the Old Port

also, there is a fundraiser 
for the dyke march this 
Thursday at Styxx
(be there or be square)

I’m designing the poster :)
Look for it at a queer friendly store near you

Coach Steps Out of Bounds - Still Her Ball

~ Slap On Wrist for Gender-Based Discrimination at Penn State ~

WASHINGTON (April 20, 2006) - Pennsylvania State University fined a women's basketball coach $10,000 after finding that she pressured players to change their appearance to be more feminine. On Tuesday, the university released the findings of a six-month internal investigation that was launched after former player Jennifer Harris filed a suit with the Pennsylvania Human Relations Commission.

"Students have a right to learn and compete in environments where they are safe from harassment by their peers and educators," said Sam Sewell, Youth Program Director for the Gender Public Advocacy Coalition (GenderPAC.) "We need to send strong messages to people who work with youth that it is absolutely unacceptable to force young girls and women to fit a narrow definition of what it means to be a woman."

Coach Rene Portland reportedly pressured Jennifer Harris, who was among the leading players for Penn State, to look "more feminine," told other players not to associate with her, and repeatedly inquired about her sexual orientation before abruptly dismissing her from the team in March 2005.

In addition to the fine, the university has ordered Portland to take professional development classes "devoted to diversity and inclusiveness" and has stated that she would be dismissed for any future violation of the school's nondiscrimination policy, which bans discrimination and harassment on the basis of race, sexual orientation, and other personal characteristics.

Harris, who maintains that she is not gay, said in a statement to the press, "I am disappointed by this result. Penn State did not take the allegations seriously and does not appear interested in solving the underlying problem."

Harris is currently a student at James Madison University and will play her final two seasons beginning in the fall of 2006.

www.gpac.org

Check out this Event!
kelly and I are going down on Saturday.

::::::free music:::::::

www.earthfest.com

"Generally speaking, 'Sex Positive' means rejecting the dominant view of sex as somehow something shameful (especially for women), and embracing any and all consensual sex practices between one, two, or more adults as healthy, and without needing apology, justification, and (for some) social contextualization. Rejecting the accumulated cultural baggage the surrounds it, and enjoying sex for what it is, however you do it, with whomever you do it. It means looking at the diversity of sexual practices..... including homo/bisexuality, genital-to-genital, oral, anal, digital to genital/anus, S/M, B/D, the spectrum of fetishes to be found among humans, the use of sex toys, masturbation, group sex involving any or all of the above, et al.... as being positive and not feeling that one need be ashamed of any consensual sexual practices between adults."

www.feminista.com

So much rain on my birthday...

Water is the most feminine of the five elements and therefore is considered very yin. In Taoist cosmology, femininity is not considered weak. On the contrary, water is the most powerful element for it can move around any obstacle in its path without losing its essential nature. Water can, in time, dissolve the hardest mountains.

Water qualities are creativity, sensitivity, reflection, persuasion, effectiveness, and desire for life and sex.



"Let the rain kiss you.
Let the rain beat upon
Your head with silver liquid drops.
Let the rain sing you a lullaby."
-Langston Hughes

What Can I Say

Look to the clock on the wall,
Hands hardly moving at all.
Can't stand the state that I'm in
Sometimes it feels like the walls closing in

O lord what can I say
I am so sad since you went away
Time time ticking on me
Love is the last place I wanted to be
Lord what can I say

Try to bury my toubles away
Drowns my sorrows the same way
Seems that no matter how hard I try
It feels like somethings just missing inside

O lord what can I say
I am so sad since you went away
Time time ticking on me
Love is the last place I wanted to be
Lord what can I say

How rules can I break
how many lies can I make
how many roads can I turn
to find me a place where the bridge doesn't burn

O lord what can I say
I am so sad since you went away
Time time ticking on me
Alone is the last place I wanted to be
Lord what can I say



Hiding My Heart Away

So this is how the story went
I met someone by accident
That blew me away
That blew me away

It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, you buried them away

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face under the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
I'm sure you'll go one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
And I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away

I dropped you off at the train station
And put a kiss on top of your head
I watched you wave
I watched you wave
Then I went on home to my skyscrapers
Neon lights and waiting papers
That I call home
I call it home

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
I'm sure you'll go one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
And I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away

I woke up feeling heavy hearted
I'm going back to where I started
The morning rain
The morning rain
And you know I wish that you were here
But that same old road that brought me here
Is calling me home
Is calling me home

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear someday
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
And I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Is this any way to run a democracy?
Wednesday, May 03, 2006 - Bangor Daily News << Back


By Ellen Wells and Cathie Whittenburg

A bill came before the Maine Legislature this session (LD 1938, An Act to Protect Victims of Domestic Violence) that would have required that a person who obtained a protection from abuse order be informed if her (or his) abuser tries to purchase a gun from a licensed dealer (which is illegal anyway). The local law enforcement office in which the endangered person lives would also be informed.

Simple enough: It gives the threatened person further warning and more time to protect herself. The Criminal Justice Committee of our state agreed - unanimously - that the bill was a basic need and gave it an "ought to pass."

A roster of VIPs spoke for the bill at the hearing: Public Safety Commissioner Mike Cantara and Maine Attorney General Steve Rowe both gave it a strong thumbs-up. Other proponents included the Maine Coalition to End Domestic Violence, the Maine Chiefs of Police Association and the Maine Sheriffs Association.

No one spoke against it!

LD 1938 then rolled merrily along through two readings by the Senate where it was quickly passed; then on to the House. It passed "unencumbered," as they say, through the first reading and was on its way for final passage when out of the blue it got tabled by Rep. Joshua Tardy, R-Newport.

Enter the National Rifle Association, ominously out of sight throughout the hearings and readings. Suddenly they wanted to add some last-minute amendments to the bill, amendments that had nothing to do with the content of the bill, amendments that had received no public hearings, that thus avoided the usual lengthy work sessions that legislation is required to go through.

They had picked up their amendments from bills recently passed in Pennsylvania, bills that were the result of 10 years of negotiations, debates and discussions between and among that state's domestic violence groups, sportsmen's groups, and, yes, the NRA. Some of the issues had been debated for three years, yet the NRA had the chutzpah to saddle Maine's little LD 1938 with a load of undiscussed and irrelevant stuff at the last minute.

Guess what? It worked! Enough easily manipulated legislators suddenly lined up with the NRA and defeated LD 1938.

Winners: the NRA. Losers: women and girls in danger of their lives from abusive partners.

Our legislators are certainly not listening to their constituents. Looks like it's got to come from the grass roots, citizens, to stop the NRA from telling our legislators just when to jump.

So far, the legislators' response is usually, "How high?"

Ooh La La
by The Ditty Bops

What among the lovers
What twang of temptation
What brought the house down
Strange sleepwalkers on the block
Unfamiliar writing on the ceiling
When she looks up

Momma buried pop atop the roof where he slept
One leg on each side of pointed shingles
Latest tests prove that she's happier with more
The oyster is open for any to pearl

Still she's got three different lullablies to sing
These fruited images are delicacies

Was it the fighting was it the fist
Was it adventure with a jealous twist
Was it desire for another's kiss
What brought the house down

Turmoil and passion such wondrous things
What they called Summer lovers happening in Spring
Who's dreaming of who tonight
Who'll be walking by your side
At the dawning's first light

Do all he can to save a soon to be dead past
Give it all up to find a new way that will last

Was she wrong to hold his heart another person's hand
The grass is always greener 'til it's covered up with sand
Was it other things
Fate, felicity
What rousing temptation

She knew that love could swell without barricades
Standards must be broken even these
Now she has three different lullabies to sing
These fruited images lead her to sleep

Was it the fighting was it the fist
Was it adventure with a jealous twist
Was it desire for another's kiss
What brought the house down

Wild Is the Wind
Nina Simone

Love me, love me
Say you do

Let me fly away
With you

We're creatures of the wind
Wild is the wind

Give me more than one caress
To satisfy this hungryness
We're creatures of the wind
Wild is the wind

You touch me
I hear the sound of mandolins
You kiss me
With your kiss my life begins

Like a leaf clings to a tree
Baby please cling to me
We're creatures of the wind
Wild is the wind

You touch me
I hear the sound of mandolins
And you kiss me
With your kiss my life begins

Love me, love me
Say you do

Let me fly away
With you

Take Back the Night
Rally. March. Speak Out.
tonight in monument square, 6pm
be there.
:)



Take Back the Night is an internationally historic community event to speak out against sexual violence and gather support for survivors and their loved ones. In addition to the rally and march, we will welcome speakers Steffan Morin, co-founder of USM’s “Vote Louder” program, Shenna Bellows of the Maine Civil Liberties Union, and Deborah Simpson, State Representative. Music will be performed by Sontiago, Travis James Humphrey and Vanessa Torres & Touching Ground. Also, there will be a speak-out, at which survivors of sexual violence and their loved ones can stand up to share their stories.

Take Back the Night breaks the silence that surrounds all types of sexual violence and supports the healing of all victims—male or female, gay or straight, young or old. Please join us for this inspiring event as we honor survivors of sexual violence and work towards eradicating this crime.

Kelly and I saw a possum the other night driving home...

The Opossum

The opossum is a crafty animal that shows us how to play different roles. It knows when to act, when to hide, and when to show its true colors. Opossum is a master at recognizing truth as well as falsehood. When it wants attention it gets it. When it wants to be left alone it plays dead. It is a strategic animal that knows how to mold each situation according to its needs. It has the ability to decode hidden messages and read between the lines.

A supreme actor, the opossum can be aggressive or submissive depending on the situation. The opossum knows that each situation has commonalties as well as differences and reflects on them carefully before it responds. This links the opossum to the energies of practicality and ingenuity.

Always full of surprises and unpredictable opossums are masters at playing dead. When the time is right they can suddenly spring back to life. Playing dead is a self induced state in which the heartbeat actually slows and the pulse becomes minimal. This ability serves to confuse many predators giving the opossum an escape from life threatening situations.

Opossums are nocturnal and raise their young in a pouch on their mid section. The young are born blind and rely on their feelings to guide them to their destination. They learn to sense their way around at an early age developing strong instincts by the time they reach adulthood. These instincts are complimented by their inherent ability to disguise themselves. The opossum is a multi-faceted actor that continually changes its appearance. It does not allow its emotions to consume its actions and partakes in the game of life with strategic maneuvers. Part of what the opossum teaches to those with this totem is emotional and mental stability.

The opossum is a craftsman in the art of appearances. When it appears in your life it is telling you to wake up and pay attention. Things are not what they seem to be. By observing your actions, reactions, thoughts and feelings, deeper insights emerge. This emergence leads to self-empowerment. Congratulations and welcome home!